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30 November 2007

*Cough* *splutter* *ouch* *itch*

I'm no so well.

Thanks to giving birth to a petri dish a few years ago, I have now picked up this horrible cough thing that's going round. Not only is it hurty, it makes my ears itch.

Have lots I want to tell you about, more New York photos and pics and tales of last weekend's hen night, but it'll have to wait. I'm going downstairs to lie on the sofa and drink Ovaltine.

Go and read Trashionista instead, there's loads of good stuff on there. Or my latest Smug Married. At the very least have a look at the madness that is Meg Cabot.

29 November 2007

Good grief

Cerealdm2711_468x697I've mentioned before how I have to read the Daily Mail online for work and it always makes for an entertaining, if depressing, start to the day.

[Warning: don't click on any of these links if you don't want to know the outcome of Dancing With the Stars. Stupid internet.]

Today, for example, I've learned that Jennifer Love Hewitt has "piled on the pounds", but "Fern Britton and Gemma Atkinson are shrinking. Sarah Harding's got "bingo wings" (I thought bingo wings were generally made of fat, not skin), while Chanelle's got bigger boobs and VB's got smaller ones. Lindsay Lohan is orange and Twiggy looks older in real life than in the M&S adverts (no!).

But the thing that really stopped me in my tracks was these politically incorrect adverts. Interesting that the Mail is trailing them as shocking sexism of the past, when, as you can see from the above, sexism is alive and well in the pages of the Mail (and elsewhere, obviously).

Aah, Wispa

Lovely Stella sent me this and it's got the day off to a great start. Even though they forgot Craig.

28 November 2007

Top of the Rock


I've been trying to upload one of the other side (with the Empire State Building), but it doesn't seem to want me to. So more tomorrow. I like how this one looks a bit seventies...

27 November 2007

New York, baby!

100_5335 I've finally managed to get the pics uploaded (by deleting a bunch of photos of Harry - you know, we've got squillions the same from when he was a baby). So, cast your mind back to a couple of weeks ago and I was off to New York...

Since David's mum had gone out, we couldn't drop Harry off as planned so he ended up coming with us to the train station.* H was totally cool with it and I was surprisingly okay too. I only had a little cry, honest. And then a laugh when I found Harry's Thomas the Tank plastic camera in my coat pocket.

In leaving Harry, I hadn't really thought about the journey, but I had my books and my iPod so I was fine. I got the train to Manchester airport and then waited for my flight. Which was delayed. I was supposed to take off at 7.40, we actually took off at 9pm and then couldn't land at Heathrow and so had to circle for half an hour. Anyway, finally I dragged myself up to the door of the Jurys Inn and knocked...

And there was Lisa! We've been emailing for a while, but had never spoken, but I swear, we started talking before I was through the door and didn't stop for five days. She was taller than she looks on her blog (!) but apart from that she was just as fabulous as I expected.

100_5283 The following morning we got up at stupid o'clock and a mere 12 or so hours later we were in New York! We checked into the hotel - which was the nicest hotel I've stayed in in New York (the pic at the top is from the rooftop bar and restaurant) - and then wandered up into "town". We were about four blocks from Bloomingdales, but we didn't actually make it in! On Friday night we spent about two and a half hours in Barnes & Noble and then got some dinner, before falling into bed (separate beds, that is!) at 9.30pm.

100_5285 The following day was walking day and we were surprised to find we were simply given maps and left to our own devices. Fortunately they were pretty easy to follow and so we spent the rest of the day following them! The route took us out onto the Brooklyn Bridge and then past loads of sights and areas of interest, so it was actually a great way to see New York, as well as being the thing we went to New York for!

Exhausted, we fetched up at the hotel at about (I think) 5.30pm and then Lisa went out with the guys from Fred Flare. I was too tired and spent the evening relaxing in front of Scrubs and Will & Grace and reading Meg Cabot's Size 14 Is Not Fat Either. I did argue with myself at one point that a drink in the rooftop bar with two cool gay guys would be a better use of my time than basically doing the same thing I do on a Saturday night at home, but I was just too tired and I actually fell asleep at 9pm!

100_5289 Sunday me and Lisa did a bit of shopping (mainly in the Hershey's store) and then I met Diane and her mum up at the Rockefeller Centre. After a delicious and hilarious lunch we headed for Top of the Rock. Now I've been desperate to go there since reading about it a couple of years ago and it didn't disappoint. In fact, it was so good it's getting a post of its own tomorrow. With movies and everything.

Sunday evening was the Gala Dinner with the rest of the walkers and this took place on the Spirit of New York harbour cruise. I was looking forward to this so much (I actually squealed when I found out we were going on it) and it was so good. There was cheesy entertainment, good food and cocktails - what more could you want? We sat with a really cool couple of women and spent the whole evening laughing. We were definitely the raucous table, particularly when it came to singing New York, New York at the end of the cruise.

As we drifted past the Statue of Liberty, the PA was playing America the Beautiful and I had a little weep. And I'm not even American! I did try to take a photo of the Statue of Liberty, but it was so cold out on deck, that all I managed to get was a green blur.

100_5348 Monday morning, Miss Lisa had a flash meeting, so I waited for her in Borders (picture on the right - coolest Borders view ever!). I know it seems crazy to spend so much time in bookstores in New York, but it was actually my fifth time there and I've done (almost) all of the touristy things I want to do so I was happy looking at books and drinking a chai latte while making planning notes in my new Sesame Street notebook (Virgin Megastore, Times Square).

When Lisa got back from her meeting, we spent another happy hour perusing the YA fiction shelves and gossiping about books and authors. See, that's my idea of a good time!

After a completely fabulous lunch at a diner near the hotel (I had a turkey burger on rye! On rye!), we picked up our cases, hopped on a coach and headed back to the airport. I do so hate to leave New York. It was easier this time because I knew I had Harry waiting for me at home, but it's still hard to watch that skyline recede...

So flight to Heathrow, which was (hurray!) early, except (boo!) that meant I had even longer to wait for my flight to Manchester. How did I spend the time? Reading, drinking hot chocolate, eating pastries and checking my emails, of course. And then, finally, I was in Manchester and running into the arms of my cute little boy.

Me: Harry!
Harry: Middy! Elmo's World?

* I just wanted to say something about all the plans and pondering relating to me leaving Harry for five days. Maureen left a comment that I should have just sneaked out in the night and, although I think it was tongue in cheek (!), it is something I feel strongly about. Me and David always tell Harry exactly what we're doing whether we're leaving him for a couple of hours or a night or five days. We did try the sneaking out thing once or twice when he was little, but we didn't feel good about it and we'd never do it now. Imagine if you woke up one morning to find that your partner had buggered off to New York for five days without telling you. Why not extend the same courtesy to a child as you would to an adult?

Plus, it's self-defeating anyway since it just makes them insecure. Harry can trust us that if we say we'll be back in a couple of hours, we'll be back in a couple of hours and if we say we'll be back Tuesday, we'll be back Tuesday. It's important to me that he feels secure and it seems to work really well since whenever either of us goes anywhere, he just takes it in his stride. Although I do think he'll permanently associate Tuesdays with airports now...

22 November 2007

The joys of motherhood

This afternoon I went to pick Harry up from preschool. He ran up to me, smiling, and grabbed my hands.

Then, holding them out in front of his face, he threw up in them.

In case you're interested, it turned out to be some sort of organic crisp and apple skin combination and not actual vomit, but frankly that was little comfort...

First New York photo!

Newyorkwalk

I haven't tried my camera on my computer again because I'm frightened to upset it (it's not a happy pooter), but the charity sent me this photo of the whole bunch of us before we set off.

Look at the Statue of Liberty! It really is appalling tiny, isn't it. So disappointing. Anyhoo, if you've got good eyes you can see me crouching a bit between the front and second rows about fifth from the left. Lovely Lisa's head is almost directly under that tiny statue thing.

21 November 2007

"But have you seen Mel B's paso doble from the week before this?"

Said my lovely friend, Jo. Why, no! I hadn't. I have now. Holy. Crap.

And thanks to having to check news sites for my job, I saw a spoiler and this week's sounds pretty fabulous too. Can't wait.

20 November 2007

I'm dancing with the stars!

Read my Dancing With the Stars review and Strictly Come Dancing review. Go on!

Dancingwith One of the (many) things I bought in Borders in New York* was this Dancing With the Stars exercise video. Featuring Maks, Kym and a woman I don't know, it includes Paso Doble, Cha Cha, Samba and Jive and can all be done without a partner (which is essential since David would rather poke his eyes out than Cha Cha).

Yesterday I did the warm-up and the Paso section and it was fantastic. The trouble I usually have with exercise videos is that I get bored. Of course, they need to teach you the basic steps before going on to the routines, but then you have to plough through all the basics each time you do the routine. Yawn.

But not on this DVD! (I sound like an infomercial...) They launch straight into it. So it's really hard (and possibly quite dangerous if you're not sensible about it), but it also means it's challenging and I like to be challenged.

My first go of the Paso, I probably managed to do maybe 40% of it, but I really enjoyed it and I was laughing as I did it, not just because I was making such an arse of myself (there was no-one there to see me), but because it was just such fun to be doing the Paso moves I've been watching on TV for so long!

It's going to take me ages to learn the routines, so I'm confident this DVD will keep me going for a while. Plus, even though I didn't manage half the moves, I was knackered at the end of it (it probably only took about 20 mins) so it's got to be good exercise too.

Later, Harry wanted to do some "dancing" so I put it on again and did a bit of the Cha Cha:

Me: This is hard!
Harry: It's hard, Middy! Well done!

Heh. Thanks, kid.

*Stupid pooter on the blink again. Well, not on the blink, it's full. I need to free up 20mb (?) of space in order to run the photo software. I'd like to delete some photos, but I can't without the photo software...

16 November 2007

Meanwhile, back in The Real World

Rwsf Still having computer problems so still no photos. I could just tell you all about it, but you'd fall asleep without the photos, I promise. Will ring Mac ... when I get a chance (should be in about 15 years when Harry leaves home).

Anyway, I'm getting my New York fix since I discovered I can get The Real World: New York on demand (on Virgin cable). I loved this show so much and this morning, watching the first episode, it was like rediscovering old friends. I sat there going, "Eric!" "Norman!" "Julie!"

I hope they show The Real World: San Francisco (pictured). I was OBSESSED with that show. I think I've written about it before, but Pedro Zamora (second from the right) died of AIDS and I was devastated (I know it's hard to believe, but AIDS - or at least AIDS awareness - was fairly new) (And, yes, Lisa, I do come from "olden times".).

Judd, first right, is a cartoonist and he's written a book about his friendship with Pedro. Called Pedro & Me: Friendship, Loss and What I Learned, it's been on my wishlist for a while, but now I'm watching The Real World again, I'll have to get it.

Pro-active procrastination

I read this a few weeks ago and it contains some of the best advice on dealing with procrastination that I've ever read. 

15 November 2007

Good grief

Okay, so the camera software is still on the blink and now the computer won't let me download the update (not enough memory).

I'm going to have to ring the Mac people (who are, I know from experience, utterly lovely) and find out if I can run Panther on this aged machine (it's only two years old, but that's twenty in Mac years...). But I won't be able to do it today, because today my dance card is full up (and tonight we're going to see Bill Bailey - yay!).

If you're really desperate, you can read about the NY trip and see some photos (including a truly hideous one of me - I told her I wanted photo approval!!) on lovely Lisa's blog.

14 November 2007

Typical (and Elmo's World)

My photo software is playing up so I can't post any pics today. Sorry.

I promise faithfully I will tell you all about my trip tomorrow, pics or no pics (but there'd better be pics).

This morning Harry took his Elmo book (about potty training) to preschool and when I picked him up he said, "Where d'it go, the Elmo's World?" and it transpired it had been put away with all the other crap toys.

Later, in the park, I was talking to another mum about the Elmo obsession and Harry piped in with, "Tidy up time. Oh no! Where d'it go, the Elmo's World?"

So. Cute.

13 November 2007

I'm back

I'm tired. I'm bloated. I'm about to have porridge for my dinner.

Harry's absolutely fine. Happy to see me, but happier to see his Elmo stuff!

More tomorrow.

08 November 2007

How can I...

Harryleaves... bear to leaf him. Ha ha!

Okay, a plan is in place. It involves cake, a Night Garden magazine and me hanging out and chatting in the car...

... and then, once Harry's gone, weeping and caterwauling in the shower, followed by frenetic packing and organisation.

He seems cool with things, actually. He's probably thinking I've been talking about it for so long, why don't I just go already.

So I'm going! Bye! Be good while I'm away. :)

Clooney & Fabio Fight at Celebrity Restaurant

The story's not as interesting as the headline (well, it couldn't be, could it?), but it's still something I'd like to have seen.

Pull his hair, George! Not the face, Fabio!

Bye bye, baby

No, not me. Not just yet, anyway.

No, Harry definitely knows I'm going to disappear at some point. He just has no grasp of when.

When he wakes up in the morning, he calls, "Middy" and then, in panic, "MIDDY?!" as if he thinks I'll have snuck off during the night.

At preschool yesterday, he couldn't stop hugging me and I was only permitted to leave when he was firmly installed on his favourite toy.

Last night we ate dinner with one of his legs hanging over one of mine.

It's all very sad. Of course, when I mentioned going away again, he yelled "ELMO'S WORLD" loud enough to bust an eardrum, so it's not all bad news.

What we need to decide now is whether it's best for him to be taken away from me (i.e. I stay at home and Daddy takes him to Grandma's) or for me to leave him (we both take him to Grandma's and then I go home). Any idea?

07 November 2007

You should be dancing... yeah!

This week's Dancing With the Stars review. And Strictly Come Dancing. Blimey, better late than never.

And my favourite dance of last weekend was...

And I'm going to miss them this weekend. Pah.

05 November 2007

Start spreading the news...

ChryslerbuildingPhoto (of my favourite, the Chrysler Building) taken from New York Daily Photo, which is just the best photo blog I've ever found: fantastic photos accompanied by really interesting and inspiring writing.

Anyway ... I've finally chilled out and started to wind down (well, apart from all the advance writing and shopping I need to do) and I've begun to realise I'M GOING TO NEW YORK ON FRIDAY!

I want to say a MASSIVE THANKS to everyone who has sponsored me (and a big "pttthhtht" to those who haven't ... only joking). To date I've raised £1,557.40 which is just fantastic. So thank you. :)

03 November 2007

This morning I was up at 4...

If this turns out to be the start of my (inevitable, really) nervous breakdown, just think - when I'm on the news running naked through parliament (or, more likely, mentioned briefly on Radio Lancashire for running naked through Morrisons), you'll be able to say you were there at the beginning.

Don't worry, I'm joking. And not just because there is NO WAY I'm running anywhere naked. No, I've been thinking what this waking early business might be about and I've come up with this: time for myself.

While working for myself and working from home has many, many advantages, it also has its drawbacks - I can't switch off. I've always been extremely conscientious in every job I've ever done, even those I hated. It's not a virtue; it's more about my need for approval - I have to do as much as I possibly can to make sure I don't get in to any sort of trouble (hence the reaction to criticism*). So I tend not to take much time for myself on a day to day basis. Particularly when I'm busy or preparing to take a bit of time off. Like, you know, to go to New York or something.

So if I don't permit myself any time during the day to, say, read, relax, watch Grand Designs**, then presumably my subconscious is waking me at stupid o'clock so I can get up, read, relax and watch Grand Designs.

*Writing this I realised that in every job I've had I've always had the underlying anxiety that I'd done something wrong and was about to get into trouble for it. When I was a nanny, I had a few friends round for dinner (Hi, Suzi! Hi, Sarah!). I couldn't fit the pans I'd used in the dishwasher and was a bit squiffy so I left them and thought I'd wash them in the morning. In the morning the couple I worked for - yes, both of them - were waiting for me in the kitchen. "We do not appreciate," Mr said, "you leaving the dishes for Mrs to do."

"We do not appreciate" is a refrain that runs through my head frequently. When I'm expecting a "telling off" that's how I anticipate it will start. Despite the fact that no-one else has ever said that to me. And this happened when I was 18. And I'm now twice that. For God's sake.

** I don't know what it is, but I find property programmes, particularly Grand Designs and Property Ladder, just about the most relaxing things in the universe. I discovered when I was pregnant that they are the only type of shows during which I can totally switch off, so much so that when they finish, I sometimes look around, surprised to find myself in my own home. (Incidentally, did you see this week's with Kevin's favourite Grand Design ever? The handcrafted house in the woods? Amazing. And beautiful. Even at 4am.)

Harry lives in Elmo's World

ElmoConversation with Harry as we lay together on the sofa this morning:

Me: So do you remember that next week I'm going away? On holiday? Without Harry?
H: Look! Boats! [On Balamory]
Me: Yes, boats. So you'll be here with Daddy and you'll have lots of fun, but Middy won't be here. Middy will be away. On holiday. In America. Without Harry.
H: Beebies?
Me: [Switches over to Beebies] And you'll miss me and I'll miss you very much, but then on Tuesday - so I'm away Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday - but then on Tuesday, you'll come with Daddy to the airport and I'll be so happy to see you and I'll give you lots of kisses and lots of Elmo presents.
H: Elmo's World!
Me: Yes. So is that okay?
H: Elmo's World!!
Me: Yes. Elmo's world. Is that okay?
H: Elmo's World!!!
Me: [Laughing] Is that okay?
H: Elmo's World!!!!
Me: [Laughing] Is that okay?
H: Elmo's World!!!!!
Me: [Laughing] IS THAT OKAY?
H: Yeah.
Me: So will you miss me?
H: Elmo's World!
Me: WILL YOU MISS ME?
H: No.

Takes after his father, that kid.

02 November 2007

Harry's mug shot

Harryschool_3 I mean, school photo.

We won't be spending £8.00 on a 10 x 8...

Snooooooooore

Just in case you're all on Keris Stainton Sleepwatch (Bill Oddie's coming round in a minute), I went to bed at about 8.30pm and had a fabulous night's sleep. Still woke up at about 5.30am, which is earlier than I'd like, but it's better than 2.20, so I'll take it. Weird, I call it.

01 November 2007

Still awake

I actually feel fine. I'll probably start flagging about 8pm. And I wanted to stay up for Studio 60...

Best drink of the day

No, I decided to get myself a cup of tea, get on with some work and then try and kip later when H is at school.

See, I'm partly keeping you apprised of the minutiae of my life and partly just talking to myself in the dark...

I wonder...

... if it's worth going back to bed now when I've got to be up again in just over an hour ... or will that make me feel worse?

The wrong five o'clock

Yes, I'm writing this at 4.58am. I've been up since 2.20 and awake since who-knows-what time. Do you think I'm wigging out? You're right.

I don't know what's up with me. Yes, I've got a fair amount of work to do, but nothing I can't handle. Yes, I need to do some work in advance to cover for New York and because I've got a coffee morning at Harry's school on Friday, but I've done it before. Yes, I've been neglecting this blog (and I still need to answer Stella's comments on Studio 60) but you're not going anywhere, are you, loyal readers?

But yesterday I got a gargantuan list of edits on an article I'd just submitted. While that may not seem like much, it knocked me for six. Firstly because I don't usually get any edits. When I first started writing features, I would submit the piece and then "go dark" for the day - no internet, no phone - because I couldn't bear the thought of any criticism. You must know by now how I feel about criticism, yes? And while journo friends told me it wasn't personal, to me everything is personal - EVERYTHING!

So while I'm not quite so bad these days, what an editor may see as "you just need to tighten this up and expand this quote" I receive as "you are completely shit and we only use you because there isn't anyone else ... and you're cheap". This is not good for my self-esteem. Or my health. Or, apparently, my sleep patterns.

But it wasn't just the edits - I flailed around and ranted a bit at first, but then I got on with them - seeing my stress levels soaring, David suggested that we cuddle up and watch a film. I chose The Night Listener partly because I love Armistead Maupin, but also because I could review it for Trashionista (see? always working).

We sat down to watch it. It was claustrophobic and unpleasant and I can't say I was enjoying it, but then David paused it to check the football results and I took the opportunity to check my email (of course). Big mistake. The internet was down.

David had unplugged the phone so we wouldn't be disturbed mid-movie, so of course I ran downstairs in a tear, blaming him for arseing up the connection and therefore making it impossible for me to work which "couldn't have come at a worse time" since I had "too much on  already" and "as if things weren't bad enough", etc. Yes, I lost it. And poor David looked bewildered and said, "Surely just unplugging the phone wouldn't have done it..."

"Oh yes!" I blubbered. "I suppose it's just a coincidence?!"

Yeah, it was. Virgin Media were having "technical difficulties" in our area.

I seem to be having technical difficulties in my brain...